。。。我的半人间 。。。

每个人都有自己的个人空间， 而我把属于我的空间改名为--半人间。。。 因为我曾看过一套香港电影， 主角说了一句话： “ 人间太苦；成仙太难， 不如活在半人间” 。。。 我喜欢这句话， 喜欢话中的意思。。。

我的半人间， 没有是非， 没有烦恼， 没有难过， 没有痛苦， 没有眼泪。。。 有些时候， 现实的世界真的复杂得让我们透不过气。。。 我享受在半人间的时刻。。 没烦恼的。。。 多好：）
其实这一切都是想让自己透透气。。。

... Jan 24, 2010 ...

Tonight I finish half bottle of Merlot ( Red Wine ) ... this afternoon I thought I can hear ur voice to let u know I miss u .... but u said something makes me felt down ... I admit .. maybe it's I think too much it's my fault ... U told me I think too much ... I think too much just because I really love u ...
U blame me ... make problem to u ... U told me ur mom said soemthing makes u feel down ... But u nvr tell me tat ... u nvr shared tat wif me ...
U blame me I put many thing in Facebook status ... sound like u did something wrong to me... WHy ... I hav no freedom to put wat I think to facebook ...!! Why .... U told me to leave u alone ... I give u time ... to be alone ... until u feel wan2 talk to me..... !! is it enough... !!!!
U blame me this and tat.... I'm ur girlfriend ... of coz I'll think like tat ....
If u're not important for me .. I wont think too much things... ... I giv u time to Calm down .... I really dunno wat to do ...............ah..ar.... ar ...

... silent ... Jan 23, 2010

From Dec 3rd till now ... I feel tat's something changing , last time he call me on everyday , either a day once time or twice. He had been told me he miss my voice when one day i didnt call he or he didnt call me. But now he call me less, we start talk less. Now we use to msg each other to keep contact, sometime when he msg me said he going to sleep, then I'll call he .. no matter just hav few words to say, but I still wan2 call he. Cause we already can't meet each other in this 2 months, I thought we can hear each other on the phone. After he start wok for his fren, we will meet each other less. Now I feel like he just a stranger for me. Maybe he though we hav not much topic to talk bout, so he call me less. But when I feel bored, when I hav nothing to do I hope he can accompany on the phone. But he told me he wan2 watch dvd, if I hav anything just giv he a call. I feel like he use to stay at home, why he can't watch it at other time. Everytime when I hear my msg albert I thought is he, when I hear my cell phone ringing I thought is he... But tat's not..!!
I feel like everything bck to the begining, now he make me feel strange, I don't know wat will happen when I see he afterI bck to NY. I know I'll be quiet n' quiet ...

... Jan 13, 2010... Sleepless...

Now 4:46am, everybody in deep sleep .... but I was sleepless... I tried to listen music till I fall 2 sleep .. but Failed . Maybe I hav too much worries ... coz i sleepless.
Yesterday my dad said my mom will stay in m'sia until CNY, so I gotta go bck to NY alone. My mom told me to ask my bf go 2 airport to fetch me. So I call my bf from NY, I told he my mom will stay in M'sia until CNY, and I'll bck to NY 1st. I told he my mom want he to fetch me from the airport. My bf told me, he dunno when he will get day off , coz he will work in new restaurant soon. Then he just ask me take car service go bck home. I really felt disappointed of his answer. I understand his problem, he work in new restaurant , so will a bit hard to get extra day off. But what I expect is he say he will try his best to ask his boss to get 1day off / change his day off on tat day . He didnt ... he just ask me to take car service. I really felt damn damn damn disappointed .... I cried cried cried ... just 1 and half months nvr meet each other... I feel like I'm not tat important for he ... ...

... Dec 25, 2009 ...

還以為呢次番來會係ge開心的。。。點知會係吾開心ge。。。 ﹗﹗番到來每天幫手大佬take Care 佢兩個BB。。。 有時看見佢同佢ge老婆冷戰﹐見到佢地甘都吾會開心。 搞到沒mood再留系都甘耐﹐真係好想快D番紐約﹐吾想留系度甘耐。。。!! 有時﹐我同mommy寧願去shopping mall 都"hea"﹐都吾想成日留系屋企度甘悶。。。 唸唸下真係好想番紐約。。。!!

... Dec 24,2009 _ 放低_

一個人靜靜地聽著CD回想過去﹐想一想時間過得真快。很快地我離開馬來西亞已兩年了﹐在紐約的兩年里我學會了好多野。感覺自己不再像從前那麼孩子氣﹐接下來還有很長的路還要行。無人能預料下一秒會發生什麼事﹐ 不過。。。無論前面ge路有幾難行我都會咬緊牙關熬過去。。。
兩年前我帶著﹐ 點點難過的心情離開﹐ 如今我帶著愉快的心情會來渡假。 於感情我對馬來﹐馬來係沒野值得我留戀。我不會在回顧當初的感情傻事。。。因我已將一切從記憶里刪除了。。。 我已徹底放低一切。。

... Dec 3, 2009 _ 驚喜

Dec 3, 2007 我離開馬來西亞。兩年後的今天我番來。十六個鐘由紐約飛到香港﹐再坐三個半鐘機由香港飛到馬來西亞。途中系香港機場遇見李燦森﹐佢同班friends去上海。 坐左三個鐘機後﹐終於都到馬來西亞。我大哥打左個電話卑我乾媽﹐佢騙我乾媽話買左糖水卑佢﹐ 其實係想卑驚喜個佢。。。
當我地到我大哥屋企ge時候﹐我等我媽媽同兩個哥哥入屋先﹐我就跟後先至入。當我一入到去﹐大家真是又驚又喜。。!! 因為沒人知我會番來。。。。其實有頭到尾我係想卑我乾媽一個驚喜。。。。 ^^